I can handle it and figure it all out on my own. I messed up and do not need anyone to help me. I am strong enough and capable to turn it around and make it right. I know the exact time when things need to be done according to the clock, day, week, month and even year. That WAS the story of my life.
My need to be morally perfect and in control caused me internal frustration, hopelessness and missed opportunities for deeper relationships.
STRUGGLE TO BE PERFECT
All of my life, I have had a desire to do the right thing. I prided myself in “keeping it together”. However, when I could not keep it together and failed in certain areas of my life, I was too embarrassed and shameful to ask for help. I KNEW if I tried really hard I COULD do it without the help of anyone, including giving it to God. After all, I needed to TRY and please Him. The struggle to be perfect and think I had it all together left me feeling like a failure more than once. It was only when I realized I was powerless by myself and took the courage to ask for help, I became secure in who I was as a woman created by God and more confident with myself than trying to do it alone.
STRUGGLE TO CONTROL
After many years of infertility, multiple miscarriages and trying to “fix” things in my marriage on my own, I had to realize there are things in my life I can not control. I had to be willing to submit those things to God and give up my fears, my timelines and plans of how I think it should be done. For someone who prided herself on being organized, on time and prepared for any situation, the lack of control in certain areas of my life left me feeling hopeless. The internal battle of not being able to figure it out on my own was exhausting.
What a happy day when I really understood what is now my life’s scripture
For He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Jesus Christ.
What a relief. I am not expected to have it ALL together. God knows we are going to fail, so why shouldn’t we expect it of our self.
As a Fitness and Food Designer, My purpose in life is to work with women who want to overcome the helpless feeling of not knowing how to maintain their weight and consistency in their fitness.
I understand the feelings of having control and discipline in so many areas of life, yet struggling internally in one area that is so important to a woman.
My heart is to empower women to feel confident in their choices with food and exercise and not allow this one area to dominate her thoughts.
I am passionate about helping women to overcome their fear of failure and to feel secure in all areas of their life by establishing a healthy lifestyle, no matter how BUSY life gets.